When I first discovered I was pregnant I wouldn't hear any of this "pregnancy brain" talk, I was capable, busy and carrying on as normal and wanted people to know it too.
I prided myself on keeping cool under pressure, multi tasking to the max and making an extra big effort to make sure I didn't come across as the pregnant person who couldn't keep up.
It was I think in month 4 that I forgot something - amongst a busy day at work - one tiny thing and I was greeted with the comment of "aww, baby brain!"
I was so ANGRY! `The comment came from a woman no less`AND she had children!
"How could you?!" I thought. There I was managing so well with gigs, lots of night shifts and dealing with silly people at work and the first little mistake I make, I am told its my pregnant brain....cheers! I felt defeated and immediately judged that I wasn't capable.
I didn't want to be treated any differently or thought of as not "on the ball" just because I was with child. It's not a nice feeling but I soon found out that things can change pretty quickly and having a reason for a slow brain will actually help you out in the end.
Fast forward to now..... and I completely and utterly admit to being in the throws of baby brain. I don't know when it started properly or when I finally succumbed to its mighty power but I am bowled over by how my brain seems sometimes so alien to me.
My memory is pretty much gone 90% of the time. I need to write everything down on my phone, notes, reminders, alarms - the lot!
My husband openly says how he's noticed and how frustrating it is when I don't seem to understand what he's saying or haven't court up with his train of thought. The only response I have is that its just as frustrating for me. It feels like my brain is getting smaller and I have zero control!
I guess the one positive is that you have an excuse. You can just say if you're having an off day that its due to baby brain and I'm comforted that eventually this fogginess in my head will lift at some point. (Please God!!)
A few classic examples of my baby brain in action have been:
Leaving my wallet in the shop
Forgetting passwords for my email
Getting on the wrong train when it clearly says where its going
Complicating journeys home by taking multiple modes of transport - when not needed
Lending a cd drive out - now I have no idea who has it
Suddenly forgetting people's names
Forgetting everything! - words, bands, tv shows, how to spell the word "The"
** I'm sure I'll update this list once my husband reminds me of many crazy moments**
Now? I'm happy to say I just embrace it and laugh. What else can I do?!
I know its crazy and nuts and I'm certainly NOT firing on all (or any!) cylinders but there's not too long left to go now and the biggest thing I'm learning through all of this is to just GO WITH THE FLOW. Don't fight it and just relax. :)
And with that, its time for some chocolate milk and for me to put my feet up.
Thanks for reading!