Last entry I was having a bit of a freak out about splitting my time between drumming and being a mum.
Well since then, I'm doing a lot more drumming, freaking out a bit less and loving the changes I'm seeing in my daughter everyday. She is not yet 2 but has started with tantrums already which is of course a huge challenge.
On the whole though, she is such a funny, sweet and clever girl who I'm so proud to call my daughter.
The best days for me are when I just get to hang out with her or as a family just us three <3
I have been blessed with more drum teaching so I am not doing as much picture research anymore. Just one day a week at the moment and for three other days I teach. I've found myself more busy - which I'm not a fan of BUT I did ask for more drumming work and thats what I've got! It feels really amazing to be drumming more and teaching it again. I forgot how much I enjoy giving lessons.
The struggle for me is really just trying to keep a balance of home and work.
Yes I want to take the gigs when they come in but I also want to see my daughter. The other point I didn't expect or think about is tiredness.
Luckily Quinn is sleeping a lot better now but its far from consistent. Throw in a couple of gigs or long rehearsals and I can feel pretty tired. The voice in my head is saying "get over it and drink some coffee" but I do worry that sometimes I take on too much and then feel exhausted for the days I have off - which are when I'm supposed to be having fun being mum.
So... not sure if any of that makes sense really. But I'm pretty happy with the way work is - I just need to stay on top of it and tweak a few things so I can actually enjoy the moment instead of being overly tired or feel like I'm juggling lots of plates.
I think its been said that that is what a parent does - wrestling with work and family life to get a balance and maybe there is no such thing as getting it "right" or managing to juggle everything. I have no idea but I'm sure as hell trying :D
Thanks for reading